Rhythm Of Dance.

2011 - This year has proved to be educating. Not only in matters involving the heart, but also in terms of overcoming personal insecurities. See, I am never the one to stand out from the crowd. I am not the one who comes up with sassy and catchy conversations, I am not the one with the killer style. I am more of a quiet nerd, one who enjoys philosophical conversations. I am cynical about many things, and I guess that makes me an extremely good debater. I hate being in the center of attention, hence it can be concluded that I have major stage-fright issues.

Who would have expected me to dance in front of a huge crowd? It would have been a miracle. But this year, I did exactly that. I danced. In front of a huge crowd. Not once, but twice at that. And trust me when I say it was a nerve-wrecking experience. I screwed up some of my steps for the first performance, but I was a pro by the second :) Now that I have walked in the shoes of a dancer, all I can say to all the dancers out there is.. Hats off!

 

My second performance for an event in uni :)

The Lake.

This one is not written by me. But it's one of my most fave poem to date.

The beauty of the lake is always changing,

With the light, the weather and the season.

Yet each change holds a splendor all its own,

Each viewing precious for its own reason.

In sunshine, golden stars dance across the water.

Moonlight shines a beacon in the peaceful night.

The wind causes whitecaps to erupt and roll,

While calm brings assorted reflections of light.

The water has a new costume each day,

Perhaps gray or green, aqua or blue.

Though each view is different, the lake is the lake,

Lovely in its every color, mood and hue.

My thoughts of the lake remind me of you,

My wonderful, loving partner in life.

Through sunny days and stormy times,

We've stayed together stronger then ever.

Your love is my beacon, my star and my light;

All your colors and moods are precious to me.

You make every day an enchanting delight,

And I'll love you for all eternity.

With you at my side, every experience is beautiful!

- A poem by Karl Fuchs

What Is Love?

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."


-St. Augustine

All Roads Lead Back To You.

Cold black stone,

Left me standing here all alone.

A road I’ve found no end,

So many bumps and turns,

Still you leave me with another bend.

Twisted and curved I follow,

Deep within my heart cold and hollow,

Winding and turning I continued on,

So many roads have come and gone.

One day I set out to find the right path,

Frustrated, sad and confused,

Only to find myself feeling its wrath,

I moved along,

My soul, tormented and bruised.

Standing at a fork in this God forsaken place,

Tired, scared and all alone.

Tears of sorrow streaked my face,

I fall, hitting hard, the cold black stone.

A gentle touch upon my shoulder,

Not knowing, not willing to understand,

I turned to see you standing there,

Outstretched arm with a helping hand.........

I thank God for the day you were created,

And smile each time you look my way,

The road has warmed and all my sorrows were tamed ,

Within my heart your friendship and love will always remain.

So the next road I travel frightening and new,

I will walk without pain or sorrow,

Not before, but knowing this now,

All my roads will lead back to you.

Quick-E.

Here are 25 random things you probably didn't know about me :


1. I HATE tomatoes. I always pick and place them on the corner of my plate no matter how finely they are sliced. My eyes never fail to spot them, so my mummy's efforts to trick me into eating them accidentally always proves to be vain.

2. I have a habit of munching ice cubes every single day. Can't live without 'em!

3. I don't believe in buying branded clothes/shoes/handbags n etc. I buy what I like. Then it doesn't matter if it's 10 bucks or 50 bucks.

4. I loathe coffee/caffeine. Excruciatingly bitter! Yuck.

5. Yours truly loves the smell of the hot soil when it rains :)

6. Hard metal music gives me a headache.

7. I'm probably the worst gujju you'll ever come across. I don't attend most gujju functions/gatherings, I'm not really a fan of gujju food, I speak half broken gujju and I'm not a vegetarian. Haha! But, I'm proud to be a gujju!

8. Wishes God did not take her daddy away from her and instead took some stupid, good-for-nothing idiot. I mean, people who are a disgrace to mankind gets to live a long long life. And God takes away the good people. Totally unfair.

9. Driving is one of my biggest passion. And cars too :) My fave cars : Mazda RX-8 and Ferrari California. But nothing will ever beat my Datsun. You will always be my baby :D

10. I can't swim. But I hope that someday I would know how.

11. I'm probably one of the most positive person you'll ever come across. I'm least likely to go into depression/have a panic attack/throw a tantrum/worry too much about a problem.

12. I don't know why, but sometimes I just hate talking/speaking.

13. I wanna work for CSI after graduating :) I get to tell the cops who the bad guy is. Awesome!

14. I hate eating mushrooms.

15. I love going to theme parks and I love the crazy ass rides they have. The adrenaline rush is too good!

16. Surprisingly, I don't know how to use the chopstick even though I love Chinese cuisines.

17. I'm very opinionated.

18. I don't like being lost, it scares me.

19. Eating is equivalent to heaven for me.

20. I'm very independent. Except for being financially independent of course. I will be soon though :)

21. I wana travel around the world. First destination : Czech Republic.

22. I'm kinda impulsive at times.

23. And I'm a perfectionist.

24. I can't sleep without my bolster.

25. I hate roaches, they always manage to make me scream.

Faith.

They say what you believe in defines who you are.

So what happens when the pillar of ur faith collapses?

Then how do you define who you are?

When all the things scared and pure now seems to have a scar?

And you don't have the courage to look at urself in the mirror..

Because you feel ashamed to have had faith in someone..

Who now has you feeling betrayed.

When all the sacrifices you have made bounces back unappreciated?

And the thin line between love and hate is blurred..

Because now you know that everything was just a lie..

Your life will never be quite the same again.

Faith...

It takes years to be built and just a second to destroy it.

What happens when it is destroyed?

Your heart aches and you feel angry and you cry.

Because you haf built your world around the lost faith all these years.

Now that the faith is lost, who are you?

WHO ARE YOU?

An Aura Of Flashing Colors.

I stared into the sun,
Amazed by the brilliance of the striking yellow and orange rays,
My eyes squinting, I swallowed in the bright colors..
Believing that nothing could ever compare..

Snapped back to reality,
I averted my gaze from the fierce sun to my surrounding,
Discovering only a pitch black darkness..
Closing my eyes, a sigh involuntarily escaped my mouth..

I opened my eyes again slowly,
Afraid to be greeted by the frightening hollow obscureness,
But a bubble of joy rised up my throat..
As my vision welcomed a beautiful field with colorful flowers..

A lazy smile spread across my face,
As i raked my fingers through a mat of grass,
This aura of flashing colors is a vehicle of my emotions..
It may not follow any particular direction to a set destination..
Because what matters most is the journey, not the destination ;)

Thou Art Unseen.

The rain-awakened flowers showered by a rain of melody panted forth a flood of rapture so divine..
The golden light ring of the sunken sun shimmered across the crystal stream..
The moon rained out her beams and heaven was overflowed..
The blessed gift of love leaned out from the golden bars of heaven..
Your eyes were deeper than the depths of the ocean..
Like a silver sphere in the broad daylight, thou art unseen but to me you shrill delight..

Intense desire to spread my wings into the world unknown takes over me..
The curiosity to unmask bitter sweet possibilities arouses the need for exploration..
Allow me to conjure up the magic of preservation and delude your world with all I have...

The Cupcake Love Affair.

Ah, cupcakes :) They make me happy. They're a mixture of amazing color, rich taste and pure indulgement jam-packed into one tiny irresistible paper cup.

Here's a simple recipe I found online for the most delicious chocolate orange cupcakes that I tried my hands at last week.

Ingredients :

3/4 cup or 175gm -- butter or margarine

3/4 cup or 175gm -- castor sugar

1 cup or 115gm -- self-raising flour

1/2cup or 60gm -- cocoa powder

3 eggs

1 orange -- juice extracted and skin finely grated

Method :

Cream butter or margarine with castor sugar in a bowl. Add the eggs in one at a time. Add the grated orange skin. Sift in the flour and cocoa powder. Add the orange juice. Place the mixture into individual cupcake cases in a baking tray. Cook at approximately 200 degrees for 20 minutes. When the cupcakes are cool, prepare for decoration.

Decoration :

Many resort to using whipped cream. But if you are the more conventional type, you can prepare your own buttercream icing at home. Here's how :

Cream 1 cup of unsalted butter/margarine with 2 cups of icing sugar. Add one tablespoon of vanilla essence. Once mixed, add two tablespoons of milk and beat till fluffy. And there, you now have your own icing to be used for decoration purposes.

Here's how my cupcakes turned out. I know the icing decoration looks kinda weird, but hey, it was my first time :P

By the way, these chocolate orange cupcakes are one of the many flavors of cupcakes you can make. If you're not a fan of chocolate, you may try your hands at vanilla flavor or maybe even strawberry flavor. You can find more cupcake recipes in the blog I came across.

The Truth Is A Stranger.

Nobody heard him, the dying old man..

But still he lay moaning and grunting in pain..

Anticipating the arrival of help..

Barely hanging on for dear life.

Nobody noticed her, the nerdy school girl..

But still she danced in the parking lot alone..

Ecstatic after getting her first kiss..

Her sequined gown a butterfly.

Nobody consoled him, the handicapped boy..

But still he watched the beautiful girl swift by everyday..

Mustering up the courage to speak to her..

Surrendering his dreams to destiny.

Why, oh why..

Why do we fail to notice the pain, happiness and anticipation?

Most of all, why can't we see the reasons behind those emotions?

Why are we oblivious, and refuse to embrace true sentiments?

Are we afraid?

Are we?

I need to know..

Because the truth is a stranger..

And I am afraid of strangers.